Monday, September 29, 2008

Perio Week 2

Sounds like a sequel to some B horror movie. It may as well be one for the fear it strikes into the hearts of the people who fail and struggle to run away from/defeat the title character. This quarter though, it seems like I have lost all will to be afraid or worry about these Periodic tests. Passiveness could be one word to sum it up. Laziness could be another.

This leads me to think about my identity in school. I get high grades. I study at times. I work when I feel like it. In the end, I get grades that I'm happy with.

Please don't bombard me with "Oh but Joaq, you're smart, you get such high grades, you don't need to study and you still get high". Sometimes okay, I admit, you can rub it in, you can tell me that I'm a nerd. Sometimes though because of these comments, and because of my lack of self-esteem, my accomplisments seem empty to think that all I can do is be good at my studies. I'm not someone who is really talented like other people in our batch, or someone who can do amazing extraordinary things with whatever. I've always seen what I'm capable of doing as something normal and something not worth praise.

Domo Arigato Mr. Roboto.

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